May 3, 2023

It’s starting to freak me out a little ever since I posted the Mr. Big blog… When I went to post about it on Instagram I accidentally hit the tag button and it tried to randomly get me to tag who it’s about. Which makes no sense as I don’t even follow them or anything there … Then yesterday my ice cream randomly had his birthday as an expiry date … Why? So weird … I’ve accepted that my heart may always want him. But to do it all again? I honestly don’t have the strength to be with someone who ripped me apart so badly… Even if things drastically changed and I was a number one priority, and he didn’t say those hurtful things he said... I still don’t think I could do it. As much as my heart would crave it... I would probably have to just turn it down and walk away. I do wish every day everything went differently and we got our love story... But now I know I’m better off just pouring all of those feelings into my writing. It’s better that way..

A.Rickards May 3,2023