Mama - October 28,2022

 You’d think after all this time and not knowing her really well.. that I still wouldn’t get affected by the absence of my mama.. I wish every single day that she wasn’t taken away from me all those years ago. I have had mother like figures. But I wonder every single day what it would’ve been like with her by my side. Would I be the woman I am today? Who suffers from major mental health issues.. or would I be better because she was by my side ? I ask myself all these questions everyday .. but alas you can’t change the past. I know that she would be so proud of how I’ve fought for myself since I could remember. How strong I was enduring all the abuse that happened.. From wicked step mothers and step sisters to my drunken narcissistic father.. self harm and hospitalization. I feel like I’ve lived a fucking life time in 31 years . I honestly don’t know how I’m still standing today. But here I am taking it day by day hoping she’s out there watching me. Being proud of how I’ve taken on this thing called life..

 

 

I miss you so much mama ❤️‍🩹 lots of love your bunny 🐰

 

RIP 🪦: Lori Anne Rickards 1967-1993🌹

 

A.Rickards October 28,2022