June 1st 2021

 

So, I have recently realized that I am mentally and emotionally hurting myself. I hate that I am but it's hard because as someone who writes what she feels instead of talking about it. It is an outlet for me to let the feelings flow into words. All my recent pieces seem to be about one subject. Whereas mentioned before I realized I could maybe fix my issues I have going on, but I have been getting a lot of my best work out of it. Being a writer especially with the emotions have it is a very big struggle for me to notice that I could fix part of my issues by confronting the subject. It's just all my best writing comes from that, for the hope I want and feel. I just keep thinking if talked about it all, and it worked out. Would it stop my current piece? The story I want to tell? Or could it be a second story for me to share? It makes me think of the Shakespeare quote “ To be , or not to be?”  But alas as I write this I feel as if I am going to continue to choose the hurt myself to help my passion and dreams come true. Maybe one day  I will have the balls to confront the subject and hopefully have a new sense of writing muse from that.

 

© A.Rickards June 1^st 2021