May 27, 2021

 

A few years ago I did something I regret. I ruined an important relationship to me by acting like the cold person I have unfortunately become today. I have never felt so lost or horrible about treating someone so close to me away... I hate that I let certain traits take over me causing me to retreat to the secluded person I was before... I have apologized several times over the years but I know things will never be the same. I’ve never felt so lost not having them in my life, always a phone call or text away. Always there for me when I needed it. We shared so much in common especially our writing. I cannot express how sorry I am for shutting down and shutting them out. I feel like no matter how I feel or express it won’t fix things... I want them to know how deep down to the core it breaks me knowing I shut down and pushed someone so special so close away.

Now to the person who this is about. If you are reading this. I am so sorry and have been broken over the way I acted by pushing you away.