Mom - June 2006

 

The sun slowly sets over the horizon.

There are small calm waves hitting off the rocks.

You can see island across the lake.

Looks so calm and deserted.

The bugs are flying around over the top of my head.

I look up at the sky thinking is there really a heaven?

If she's looking down on me watching me grow up?

And turn into a young woman.

Going through all the obstacles and emotions she went through.

I look off into the horizon.

Thinking what it would be like if she was here right now beside me..

I really miss her even though I was really young when I happened.

Some people don’t know how hard it is to lose someone close to them.

As the sun is slowly setting I sit here and say.

“Oh, mom how I miss you so. Why did this have to happen? I know you're watching overseeing everything I see and do. You will always be with me. I like to pretend that you are. grandma grandpa and heather are here helping me grow up to be a nice and successful girl. I just wish you were here, to help comfort me when I need it even with the little things like boys. Mom, I really like this boy he is 4 years older, he likes me too. But I don’t know if I can trust him. I've been told that I can, but how can I be sure? Please give me some sort of guidance. Even just a sign? Well, mom back home. Where I will still think about you. I love you, I miss you.”

© A.Rickards June 2006