March 22 2021- thoughts of yesterday

 I have never felt so alone and rejected as I did yesterday. A day that I was so happy to be involved in previously , now seems like all a lie. I have a feeling that certain parties do not know what has happened. But I feel so helpless vulnerable and hurt.. It took me so long to accept and be accepted into that world. I know that I should let the others know. But because of the way I am, I do not wanna do that as it may start a drama fest, Here I go again protecting everyone over myself.

ARickards March 22 2021